3. Becomes A Ghost
This song is about the process of becoming, living, and dying as an addict.
lyrics
Ghosts
chase
You
chase
Dragon
And becomes a ghost, like
This is the best I can do
With what I wish didn’t happen
Addiction, adaption
Addition, subtraction.
Like, the ghosts chase you
So you chase the dragon
While the dragon chases its tail
And becomes a ghost, like…
Must be all that white privilege
Must be a I’m a man in a man’s world
Must be my parents are still together
Must be my graduate education
Must be any advantage that you could assume
Without knowing of the hells that I’ve been through
And sure, they’re now in my head
But there’s no worse place for hell to be
And you agree
I can see with the facial expression
Recognition software that’s embedded in my coping skills
You as well have a pain so internalized
Putting it in words just intensifies the loneliness
Ironic, relatives can’t relate
To the chalk outlines that they’ve sketched on your slate
And friends have agendas of their own
So no matter how surrounded, you always feel alone, like…
The ghosts chase you
So you chase the dragon
While the dragon chases its tail
And becomes a ghost, like…
This is the best I can do
With what I wish didn’t happen
Addiction, adaption
Addition, subtraction.
Like, I gotta get yelled at for something
Gotta get left with nothing but walls
Gotta get gassed, believe that I’m perfect
Gotta get my imperfections exploited
Gotta get my dose of cortisol
Absorb it all, then treat the world like a court of law
Before the fall, there’s blame: people need saviors
Now everyone’s addicted to shame seeking behaviors
Temper tantrums, road rage, and button pushing
Bound by brains to bash against boundaries
Serotonin isn’t up there with oxygen
It’s down here for when opportunity knocks again
Locked within a 12 step 2 step
Who step? You step, I step off of the wagon
Living for the now just ruined me for later
Can’t threaten me with death: you’d be doing me a favor.
Like, the ghosts chase us
So we chase the dragon
While the dragon chases its tail
And becomes a ghost, like…
credits
from Cruel Fuel,
released September 23, 2014
Lyrics by Seez Mics, music by Max Bent
supported by 17 fans who also own “Becomes A Ghost”
I have been listening to variations of this album a long time. I remember I was living in a cardboard dumpster when some young guy was like yo dude it's gonna rain come crash on my couch. He played The Many Faces of Oliver Hart for me. I fell in love, I set my favorite track as Rain because we looped it when the rain came. That was one of the early acts of kindness I received in the nearly 20 years I've been homeless. @NomadRoamsFree
supported by 13 fans who also own “Becomes A Ghost”
Album of the year. In a fair and just world, they would be headlining festivals with this one. Big hooks. Vivid verses. Fingers-crossed, the instrumentals will get the vinyl treatment. Goodwill Hunter